Benebell Wen’s book Holistic Tarot is manna from heaven to me: it’s readable enough not to be overwhelming, but thick enough to satisfy any book lover’s nerd tendencies.
I’m using her book to slowly get back into reading. Her four-card spread is a great guide for beginners or anyone looking to learn the basics.
Wen also offers a morning routine template featuring her four-card spread for download on her site (along with other goodies).
I’ve been doing a daily pull for about two weeks now. The one below, which I pulled today, is the first I’ve shared on the blog (I’ll do this from time to time). I used the following plan from Wen’s template:
Card 1: Overall outlook for today
Card 2: What crosses my path today
Card 3: Yesterday’s unfinished business
Card 4: Upcoming goals
My pull for today:
Card 1: Four of Pentacles
Card 2: Temperance
Card 3: Four of Cups
Card 4: Death
A little background. I’ve just started a really fun, but tough job. It’s my dream job. Without going into detail, my first big task is to bring two groups in my company together, both of whom have different takes on – and stakes in – our current situation. (Note that do readings mostly for career and self development).
Analysis: the struggle is not real…at least not right now
Overall outlook for today: It’s not the first time that the Four of Pentacles has popped up in a reading this month. As a matter of fact, until this particular spread, most of my spreads have been very Pentacles and Cups heavy. This probably reflects the emotions I went through when I was deciding whether to accept the job or not and negotiating pay. In any case, Wen says that the card is the miser card. Perhaps one big issue is that I live in a place where the quality of life and the cost of living are high. I’ve fought tooth and nail (and spleen, and a couple of limbs) to get to where I am today. Something in the back of my mind keeps saying, “If you screw this up, it’s bread and water for you as you beg for change from folks passing by your cardboard box.” Yes, I’m a tad dramatic.
Maybe I’m still holding on to this struggle. I need to learn how to let go of the stuggle but not the lessons the struggle has taught me. The gentleman on the card is weighed down by the pentacle on his head, closed off to everything because he’s holding on to another pentacle, and stuck to the ground by two more. If he would turn his head just a tad to wiggle that coin off, open up his arms to let go that one coin to allow him to gather more, and pull his feet from those two sticky ones, he may have better luck. Perhaps I need to realize that I’m fine and that I won’t wind up living under a bridge.
What crosses my path today: Temperance is perhaps one of my favorite cards in the deck, perhaps because it represents something I’ve been working hard on: internal balance. Keywords for this one are balance, forbearance and attunement. Wen states, “The Seeker needs to reconcile two contrasting elements and bring them to harmony.”
Ding, ding, ding!
The issue though is that, perhaps, there’s some lingering self doubt about if I can come up with a plan of action for my task. Maybe there’s no need to panic: Temperance may mean that I have what it takes, I just have to reconcile it with what’s in front of me. The angel on the card is mixing a nice cocktail for me as I sit down at the bar. She’s trying to get me to relax.
“Here. Drink this. You’ll feel much better.”
Yesterday’s unfinished business: Like I said above, previous readings have contained more cups than a bra sale at Macy’s. I’m actually relieved that there’s only on in this one: there’s only so much emotion that can be appropriate for the day job.
As for the Four of Cups, according to Wen’s book, its keywords are introspection, contemplation and dissatisfaction. Among other things, it signals “dissatisfaction with what the Seeker has or has not accomplished to date.” The big question is “why”: why is there dissatisfaction. Perhaps this is something I should examine. I’ve only been on the job less than a month, but I can feel myself becoming a tad impatient with how little I’ve done bring folks together…which is dumb. Why am I so darned hard on myself?
Just looked at the card again. The angel is still offering me that drink (the floating cup).
Upcoming goals: Maybe I’m a weirdo, but smiled when I saw the Death card. It always means rebirth and moving in a new direction to me. Transformation and metamorphosis. It reminds me of that Anais Nin quote: “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” (Did she really say that?)
My assignment, according to Death, should I choose to accept it: Get ready for change. It may hurt, but when it’s all over you’re going to fly.
Conclusion: Patience, grasshopper
This spread tells me that maybe I’m still dealing with some self-induced doubt about my new gig, which is normal (especially after only being there a few weeks). The issue is that I need to let go of those doubts as much as I can so they won’t interfere with my ability to balance and do a good job. If I let go of these doubts, I’ll have room to think…room to grow…room to look around and see and embrace help when needed.
This is totally out of the norm for me. I’m a “warrior worrier.” I’m also extremely hard on myself by nature and expect to win a marathon in one minute. A change in thinking will be very uncomfortable, but it’ll do me good.